I just don't know anymore. . .

Ok, so first the good news. . . my little brother has been home for a couple of days now (just now getting the time to write down stuff about it).

Now for the real reason I am writing this blog . . .

Well, I’m running down the road tryin’ to loosen my load
I’ve got seven women on my mind

And oddly enough, three guys (although they are all tied to at least one of the women).

Of course, unlike the song I have no clue what is on most of these people's minds.

Let's start explaining why each of these people are on my mind. Two of the women on my mind . . . . I don't even know. I know of them both, but I have never met either of them and it is one of my buddy's fault that they are on his mind. For some reason I have him and his women problems on my mind . . . but I feel for him, so I don't hold it against him.

So, two down and five to go. Two of the other women on my mind I thought I had excised from my mind. I thought I had gotten myself so far from even thinking about them that it wouldn't bother me any more, but through the years and the mists of time thoughts of them have recently invaded my head and I don't really know why.

Ok, so only three more women and two more guys to explain away. The next woman . . . well I don't know what to think or feel about her. At points I think she may actually have feelings for me, and then the next minute it seems that she sees me as nothing more than a friend. Several of my friends say that "it is obvious" how she feels about me, but most of the time I just don't see it. Will I say anything about it? HELL NO! That has led me to nothing but pain, confusion, and ruined friendships in the past and I don't really think I could handle losing another friendship.

The next woman infuriates me at the moment. She is a nurse I met while my brother was in the hospital. We hit it off, swapped cell phone numbers, and have talked a few times since my brother got out of the hospital. I thought that maybe, just maybe something good had came of my brother's hospitalization. Then Tuesday we were chatting and she stopped the conversation with a shocker. It turns out that when we met she had just had a fight with her boyfriend and they decided to see other people. Well, on Tuesday morning he showed up at her door, told her how miserable he was without her, and asked her to marry him. Just another episode in the continuing saga of "Why George's Love Life Sucks".

The last woman on my mind is my mom, and the other two guys are my dad and little brother. I am thinking about them a lot lately because I am worried about how they are going to cope with things when I head back to school in less than a week. They have already taken off tons of time with my brother's illnesses, and me being home during the day has allowed them to continue working now that he is back home. I am worried that they will run themselves ragged working and watching him for the month before he heads back to school. Part of me thinks I should call up my bosses and tell them that I won't be able to make it to training so I can stay home and take care of him, but I know that my parents would never allow it because they would be so worried that I would lose my RA job. I dunno, I just dunno.

Grah! Well, it is time for me to try to get some sleep. I have to get up in a few hours to take my brother to the hospital for a checkup.